Lesson Learned

For the past few months I have been on a journey to better my life, my health. Last night I shared the lesson I received from an unexpected place. Lately I have been struggling with the fact that I have been stuck at only 20lbs lost. I realized I was depending more on my scale, and I wasn’t celebrating the accomplishment as I should have been. A day ago I went to grab ice for my ((beloved)) iced coffee.. lol I grabbed the bag of ice from the freezer. I realized it was super heavy and without hesitation I went to look to see what size the bag was. Sure enough it was 20lbs!

It was in that moment it dawned on me, I had that weight on me! It changed my mentality completely and how I see weight loss. To think that I have already lost that much weight is enough for me to begin being grateful, rather than getting discouraged because the scale doesn’t say what I would like it to.

I shared the video (At the bottom) as a form of motivation for women, but I believe it can bless men as well. You know, sometimes we fail to see the small achievements as something to be celebrated. It’s a small step towards your goals, your dreams. Think of it like this, you’re no longer in the same place… you’re progressing. That’s always something to celebrate. (Whether it’s losing weight, career goals, or whatever it is.) 

I have come a long way since I first began. (Photo: When I first began, and yesterday)

progressLooking at these two side by side, I now see how 20lbs is a HUGE deal!

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EMPOWERMENT

Last night I was not feeling like working out. I was feeling so lazy. I was feeling discouraged. I was feeling emotional. I also had thoughts saying, “go ahead a skip the day, you need it.” I was tempted to just stay in bed. Instead I got up and got my workout done. I pushed through the funk I was in and got it done. It was much needed, my mind was refreshed and I just felt so much better.

I have realized that exercise isn’t a form of punishment, but a form of love for my body. It helps me keep a clear mind, it strengthens me and it helps me remain healthier. I like a quote that says;

“I workout because I love my body, not because I hate it.”

I have said this before, when you love something you do anything you can to take care of it, the body is no different. Since I have learned to love my body, in whatever shape it may be in, I realized that it’s working with me and the workouts to get it into the shape its needs to be in. I am far happier now, than the person in the photo taken on, “March 12th.”

 

empowerment“Nothing can rob me of this drive I now have. There’s nothing that can come between me and this love I now have for myself, for my body. I am much stronger now; physically, mentally and emotionally than I have been in a really long time. I am determined. No one can take that away from me.”- Stephanie Ann

 

A MESSAGE FOR YOU ❤

((I made this video to share with my friends on Instagram, but I wanted to share it with everyone, not just women, but men as well!))

 

 

Size Fourteens

“I sit here staring at this photo, I am in awe. Never did I think of how much my life would be transformed in almost four months.”-Stephanie

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Progress report.

Since my last post:  The Beauty of My Body  a lot has changed for me: emotionally, physically and even mentally. For awhile it seemed like I had reached a wall, things weren’t changing and my weight was staying the same. I was depending more on the scale than the way my clothes fit and the differences in my photos. This last weekend I took a few days off from working out. I felt like I just needed the break, I was just not all there emotionally. It had been a really rough weekend.

Last Thursday, we went to Costco and I happen to see some really cute jeans. When I went to choose the size I wanted, I thought to myself; “I am going to get a smaller size, since I am losing weight.” I ended grabbing a size 14. A size that I have not been able to wear in a few years. Honestly, I was not expecting to fit into them any time soon.

Sunday came around and it was time for me to get ready for service. I didn’t hesitate or struggle to find what to wear…I immediately went for the new pair of jeans, yes, the size 14s. I put them on, and thought to myself; “Yessss! They fit around my thighs and hips,” sure enough they buttoned and zipped up! You can only imagine my reaction. 😀 I was so excited and so happy that I was finally able to fit into a pair of jeans that were no longer a size 16…(it took me years to finally get rid of that size.)

It’s a big deal for me, because the last time I was able to fit into 14s was when I was 23! Yup, seven years go. Eeek! These past seven years I had been stuck at a size 16. I guess you can say we were BFFs. LOL

I cannot express how bad I was feeling before I began this journey. Another thing that has changed tremendously is how I now view myself, how I treat my body and how I speak about myself. Because my mind has been renewed, my life has changed for the better. I am no longer mean and rude to myself. I no longer abuse my body when I feel, “fat” or bloated. I have learned to listen to it, and I have learned to rest when my body screams, “break!” I have also learned to nourish it, as well as treat it, instead of forcing it to a diet or starving it. Because of that my body has learned to work with me as well.

I now love my body. I love the progress I have made in almost four months. I am proud with how far I have come, the sizes I have dropped and the weight I have lost. I have currently lost 20 pounds, which is only 10 away from my first goal. Who wouldn’t be proud of that?!

So, the photo above is of me before I started my weight loss program and on Sunday when I first put on the size 14 jeans. (I was laughing at my face in the pic on the left. Not in a bad way though. I am just in awe at the difference between the two photos.)

It’s been almost 4 months since I started my weight loss journey. I decided to do something about my health when I got tired of always being tired, literally. I was in the worst shape, my health was getting bad and all I wanted to do was be in bed because my body always ached. Before this last time, I tried to lose weight. I would start, go strong for a few days and then just give up because I thought it was, “too hard.” I did this a few times until I became determined. I knew I couldn’t do it alone, that’s when I prayed and asked God for help. I have heard and believe that God is concerned with EVERY area of our lives, the small, the big. When I humbled my heart and asked him for help I was led to the program I am currently on. To this day I have been going strong. I have learned to love my body, eat right and learned what workouts are good for my body. I have gained confidence through this journey. That’s something I have never been able to say, in a long time. Since March, 2017 I have dropped 20lbs and have gone down TWO pant sizes. From an size 16 I can now fit into a size 14. This journey is proof that God concerns himself with everything that concerns us. That nothing is too small where he will not take the time to help us. All it takes is a true and sincere heart. I give God the credit for this journey, because I couldn’t have been able to get this far without him. That’s the truth. Many times, on my own I failed. I gave up and got no where… Not this time.-Stephanie

The Beauty of My Body

I looked at you and all I could see was flaw upon flaw. I had worked so hard to get you to go away, but the harder I tried the longer it remained. I hated you, I disliked you, I abused you. I called you names. I looked at you with disgust in my eyes, I was broken. The days were hard, the struggle was there, but little by little my vision of you changed. My eyes were opened to see that there, before, me was beauty. Imperfectly perfect are you. I have learned that you are loved. There is a Father who sees your flaws, but still thinks you’re absolutely beautiful. Because of this, I have learned to love you beyond the flaws. I look at you with love in my eyes. I look at you with desire to help you, in my heart. No longer do I abuse you, no longer do I hate you. You walk with me, you work with me to change what should be changed, and enjoy the journey on the way. No longer do you shut down at the abuse. I thank you, for we are now stronger. We are now healthier. We are mentally stronger. We are one. Beautiful body, are you.-…Heart Of Grace

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This poem was inspired by my experience yesterday. While I was stretching before my walk, I saw my reflection in the window and I thought to myself, “I like what I see.” It surprised me, because I have been one who has struggled with their weight and the way they saw themselves. I used to hate my body, myself. I mistreated it, I abused it in so many ways. I even starved my body, I went as low as to call myself a, “fat pig.” There were times I fell into depression and never wanted to leave the house because I was not confident in my own clothes. I treated my body like an enemy. I never understood and my body and I were one. I did one thing with my body, expecting it to do something else.  I later realized my body didn’t respond to abuse. Who does?

One day I just had enough of feeling sick, not having energy and always feeling depressed. It was then that I cried out to God for help and finally began doing something about it. I took my health back. I took the love and respect for myself back. God renewed my mind and placed love in my heart for my body, now I am doing better with loving it and nurturing it. (I started working out and eating right. I am now showing my body love.) It’s been 3 months and I am down almost 20lbs.

It hasn’t been easy, but God has helped me through it all. 

“It’s not everyday I like my body. There are days I look into the mirror and do my best to love what I see. There are times I wish I could trim the excess away from certain parts. Lately I have been feeling comfortable in my body, ever since I came back from Oregon. Those three days I was there I did not workout, but I did my best to eat well. I came back with a new mentality and I have not been pushing my body like I used to. I no longer plan my days around my workouts, I workout around my day. Honestly that has kept me in a good routine and feeling good physically & mentally. I felt great today and I liked what I saw. It’s confidence from God that I have.”-Stephanie

I have learned and I’m still learning to see myself the way God sees me, because when I do my body will respond how I want it to. I’ve learned that, punishing your body will not cause it to change how you want, only loving it can.

Remember, you’re beautiful. You are loved just the way you are. God, thinks you’re a gem.