While I Wait

While I wait, I trust in You. You see all things and know my anxious heart. There is so much I long to do, yet I feel like my feet cannot move. When did my desires outweigh the want to be there where You have placed me? When did I become so eager to get up and walk out? While I wait, I ask for Your guidance. While I wait, humble my heart and let no pride overtake me. While I wait, change my attitude to accept my current place. Help me to love those around me and give me the patience to wait for Your leading.

Is It Time For Something New?

Happy Monday, loves! I wanted to share something that has been on my heart for quite some time now. It’s been something that I have not been able to shake and have only kept to myself until, now. I just want to open up and be transparent, for I know that others are struggling with the same thing. It’s regarding your place and how you can start feeling as though it’s time for something new, but waiting on God to confirm and move you first.-Stephanie

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Ever felt like you no longer belong where you’re at? Like the time has come for you to move on to something better? I am currently in that season, but I have been praying for guidance regarding that.

There is so much I desire to do, but I feel where I am at, is not the place for that to happen. I have been feeling like this for some time. It hurts to feel this. Maybe it’s guilt. Maybe it’s God leading us to something better. I am still unsure. The last thing I want it to be is, emotion. 

Yesterday, service was good. It felt so good to finally be there after missing a couple weeks, due to my husbands knees. I felt connected. I felt so much joy to be able to praise and worship God in His house. But the last few times, I have left service feeling the same thing.

There was this one time, during worship where I heard these words; “Not here.” (It was in regards to me wanting to do so much more than what I am currently doing. It was regarding my deep desire to share my story and help other women.)  To this day, I am still asking God to reveal to me what that meant. I am asking for clarity and revelation, because the last thing I want is to make a move, without Him.

When something is meant to happen, God opens doors and shuts those doors that no longer pertain to you. The key is to wait patiently for Him to lead. Something out of order and out of it’s right time will only fall apart.-Stephanie

It’s liberating to finally let this out. It’s liberating finally learning how not to hold back. Yesterday, I wrote something to God. I wrote my deepest desire and how I want Him to prepare me for it. It was a bold request. Those are the kind of prayers He likes.

While I Wait

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We all know that there are times when we must make changes for our lives. It can be switching jobs, moving to a new city/state… etc. But while waiting we are still expected to do our best where we are for the time being.

God has us there for a reason, but we believe that there will be a time when He will ask us to go. I want to do more. I desire to do more and I don’t see myself doing it there. ((Of course, I can be so wrong, that’s why I continue to ask God for wisdom.)) For the mean time, I need to continue to seek God; allowing Him to change me.

It’s no coincidence that during this season with my husbands health, things have been changing. We have seen who is really there and who isn’t. But it doesn’t surprise me, this time. I have been accepting such things as God shifting things around and protecting us. It has taught us both to rely solely on Him and each other. It has broken us free from the dependency on people.

I used to see that as there was something wrong with me, that people were being removed from my life. I used to wonder what was so wrong with me that they no longer want to be around me.

I have understood there are seasons in which people are there and aren’t.  

Moving Before It’s Time

I was just reminded of a story in the bible where a family packed up and left due to the famine in their land. They weren’t seeing what they needed, so they got up and left, thinking it was the right thing to do. They left the place God had them, for something they were lacking. God didn’t send them. God didn’t instruct them to move. In doing so, life turned upside down and the men in the family died. Things went horribly wrong for them, because they left without God’s guidance. -Ruth 1

What “famine” are you currently facing in your life? What are you currently lacking in your life, that you think you will find in a new job or in a new city? I ask myself that same question. I guess my answer would be: fulfillment. The feeling and assurance that I am doing what God has called me to do and no longer sitting on the, “sidelines.” I don’t like that feeling at all.

I am like that player who is eager to play; the one who cannot just sit still and watch things happen; or like that student who has the right answer, but is never called on. That’s how I feel, where I am at. I am being honest.-Stephanie

I am not perfect, of course I still have a lot to learn… but no one is perfect. I just keep waiting for my time and for the right place, to be set free.

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Wait patiently for the Lord.
Be brave and courageous. 
Yes, wait patiently for the Lord. -Psalm 27:14

My Vulnerability

It hurts. I get angry. I grow impatient. There are times I wish I could just do what I feel, but I know first hand that things don’t go well when I do. Patience has never been my strong quality. It’s always being tested and there are times I really do fall short.

But it’s in giving God full control of my life, that I have been able to see blessings and things fall into place without me doing a thing.

I see a lot of things. I don’t agree with a few things. My job isn’t to criticize, judge, or rebel; it’s simply to pray. That is still my home. That is still the place where I am being strengthened and molded.

You want to be blessed in all you do? Remain humble and submissive, where you’re at. Continue to do your best, even when you don’t agree with how things are going or with the people. Being led my Him, rather than emotions, keeps you under his covering of protection and blessings. Never move from where you are because of what you lack, see or feel. Let it be Him who directs your steps.-Stephanie

Truth

You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.

-Proverbs 21:19

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We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.

-Proverbs 16:9

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Commit your actions to the Lord, and your plans will succeed.

-Proverbs 16:3

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Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. 

Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.

-Proverbs 3:5-6

 

Final Thoughts

When I write, my mind is at ease. There have been times when God reveals to me many things as I type. A few of my questions have been answered through my blog posts. I think that is amazing. In this case, I am still waiting for God to reveal to me His plan for me and my marriage; what He wants us to do and where He wants us to go, if He does.

While I wait, I want to remain humble. While I wait, I want to remain full of love for my neighbors. While I wait, I want to become a better version of myself and be molded into who I need to be. While I wait, I want to be prepared for what’s to come. While I wait…-Stephanie 

5 thoughts on “While I Wait

  1. While you wait may God help you seek His kingdom and righteousness and let everything else is added unto you. God’s merciful eyes are ever on his children, let there a revelation in this time of your wait. I pray, Amen!

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  2. I believe that if you have been feeling like this for a while now, maybe that is a sign that it is time for something on or to move on to something else. It is one thing to be caught up in a moment where you believe that you should or want to do something else, but if it has been for a while…then I do believe that is a sign. Just keep praying and waiting for God to answer your prayers on what is next in life.

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