It’s a new day. As the sun shines bright, so is the fire burning deep within me. A new day horizons, so is my longing for you. I have been wandering around, this new person I no longer know. I sat at your feet, reflecting on who I have become, but her, I did not recognize. I felt like an outsider, in a home I have known. I looked around as though I didn’t know where I was. Like a little girl, I hid my heart. I felt afraid, I felt alone. I have let so much time separate us.
I look ahead, I look behind; I see where I want to be, yet captivated by the past. In the middle I remain. What is more important to me? The person I know I should be, or the person I used to be. Nothing good comes from the past. For looking back, I have become a statue; stuck in the same place, I cannot move.
I turn my eyes to you, where my help comes from. My heart yearns for you. Who I have become, I no longer know. It’s not me, it’s not who I am meant to be. I surrender my will. I surrender what I desire.
My feet are free, I am able to move again. No longer a statue, no longer stuck in the same place.
…Heart of Grace
Written by: Stephanie A. Pequeno
September 21, 2017
This poem is an illustration of what I have been going through. Lately I have found myself being this person I do not know. I have been doing things I normally wouldn’t have been, and desiring to fit in. That’s not me. I have been forgetting the real me, the person that is meant to stand out, rather than fit in.
I have been stuck in the same place, because looking backwards gets me no where. This, I already know, but I continue to do it. Why? I have let a single person influence me, and their opinion of me, I held tightly. Not anymore.
But who are we, people? That our opinions should matter so much? Or that we should worry so much about the opinions of others and determine our walk at life by what others think or say about us? Why do we care so much?
We are afraid of being alone and rejected. We based our lives on what others say, when in reality they are living the lives they want. -Stephanie
Break free from that cycle. Break free from the mold. Break free from the worry of what others will think or say about you.
Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.
He rejoices over you, He rejoices in the person you truly are, the very person He created you to be. He looks at you through eyes of Love and falls more in love with you. He holds you in the palm of His hand, never to let you fall. He knows what you’re capable of, and desires to help you through. -Heart Of God
There’s one opinion that matters, the opinion that is never changing and always remains the same; the opinion of God.