When I first embarked on this journey I am on, I couldn’t imagine where it would take me. This road before me, not always has it been so easy. Many times, I wanted to surrender, I wanted to quit. A fire burning deep within, pushed me further than I thought I could ever go. I am still here, I am still going. My mind I have conquered, the thoughts I have extinguished. No longer am I fighting to move forward, I am now fighting to no longer stay behind. I have learned many things; about myself, about my body. I realized that this temperamental vessel will not always do what it should, but in loving it anyway you will see it move. My body is my own, I know that full well. I love it just the same. This journey has been rewarding, for I can see the progress being made. At times, with my own eyes, I cannot see what’s being done; deep down inside I know I am no longer the same. I am a new person. In a new body, learning to love this one is taking time. Things are new to me, the different clothes I am now able to wear… overwhelming at times, but nonetheless it’s an amazing feeling. I am not where I want to be, but I am thankful that I am not where I used to be.-…Heart Of Grace
Where to begin?! It’s been almost 7 months since I began my weight loss journey. *Phew* Though I am not where I wish I was at this point, I am beyond thankful that I am not where I used to be, (7 months ago.) I was in bad shape, I was tired all the time, I had no energy to do anything… my body ached all the time. I know, I know… I have mentioned that before.
BUT, I did something about it. I had gotten so tired of literally being tired. So, I stopped making excuses and became determined to change my life. Man, has it changed!!
Sunday, I had just gotten home from visiting family down south. The entire time out there I didn’t exercise, nor did I eat as healthy as I should have. I thought I had gained weight! I was afraid I would come back home; bloated, swollen, a bit rounder… either way I was determined to get my workout in. (Even though we were on the road for 10 hours and I was tired.)
A determined mind, nothing or no one can stop. -Stephanie
Before my workout that night, I decided to take a photo of myself in my workout clothes, just to see where I was at. I was so surprised, in a good way! I was amazed at how much my body has changed since March. I could have literally jumped up and down with joy, but I didn’t want to seem dorky. LOL So what I did instead was do a side by side comparison.
I almost feel embarrassed looking at the photo from March, but then I think to myself, “Don’t you dare, you have come a long way. You should be proud.” I guess I feel embarrassed for allowing myself to get to that point. I was going through so many things at the time, I didn’t feel like doing anything, I just stopped taking care of myself. I just kept eating & had no self control.-Stephanie
In the beginning it was hard, it took a lot of effort and determination. I was never used to pushing myself past what I thought was comfortable. Seriously, at the first sign of over exertion I would quit and stop. So many times I tried working and sticking to a diet, but nothing worked because I hated my body and wanted to punish it. I would try to do so much in one day that it would leave me sore and not wanting to do more the next day.
Nothing, absolutely nothing changes over night. That’s something I have been learning these past few months.
When it came to dieting, I would do those harsh diets, I would starve myself… why? Again, because I saw myself through eyes of disgust, rather than through love. I punished my body and demanded that it do what I wanted. It doesn’t work like that.
Something you have no love or respect for will never do what you want it to, especially when it’s being disrespected. It will shut off, burn out, or just breakdown.-Stephanie
(Photo Taken: September 3, 2017-after my workout.)
I now cherish my body. My body is finally doing things I wished it would have done years ago! Being completely out of shape has caused my hormones to be out of order for far too long. If I wanted them to get back on track, I knew I had to make changes. I had to lose weight and start living a healthier lifestyle.
Last week, I wasn’t able to workout. My body was going through something I have not experienced in years. I was on my period. Yes! A full six day cycle… (that hasn’t happened in years.) I was always irregular, it would come every few months. When it came it was lite and only lasted three days. This time was different.
I was excited. I was really overjoyed. I was happy that I was finally able to use pads and tampons after 2 years without a period… like how many women get EXCITED over their menstrual cycle and things like that? I thanked God over and over for allowing it. I was in so much pain though, the cramps were a little overwhelming, I cried a few times. If it meant that I’m about to become regular again, it was worth it.
For the first time in a really long time, I felt more like a woman than I ever have before. I felt truly feminine. -Stephanie
I started my journey for this reason. To get my health back in order and for my body to start functioning the way it should. The way it was designed to. The way God created it to be.
We blame others for how our life turns out, but we fail to see that it’s our own actions/ choices that lead us down a path that we weren’t supposed to be on. I am talking about health wise. I ate and ate and did nothing about it. I didn’t think about how it would affect my life, until it was affecting my life. -Stephanie
I see so many people battling with health issues and still do nothing about it. That’s not life. What I desire is for my journey to inspire and motivate others. That if I was able to get up and start, anybody can. I am no longer ashamed, or embarrassed to share what I share, or of taking pictures of my body. I want to be real. I want to be transparent and not pretend…being like that, I know it’s not helping and will not help anybody.
People want to see real posts of change, and see real bodies, and not ones that have been edited… they want to see that their progress & hard work, too, can lead to real results.
My weight loss journey has been solely; eating right and working out on a regular bases. I have not had the need for supplements or anything like that. I wanted to do this without any help. I am seeing fruit. I am seeing real results that come from my hard work and efforts. I couldn’t be anymore proud of myself.
Love yourself enough to say, “This is the day, and I am determined to do what it takes to take my health back,” and follow through with it. Do it for you.-Stephanie
Yes, you’re the perfect reason to start. Be your own ”why.”
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- resolution, resolve, willpower, strength of character, single-mindedness, purposefulness, perseverance, persistence, strong-mindedness, stubbornness, courage