I look at myself, I don’t recognize the person I’m seeing. My heart I have closed off, I’ve isolated myself from you. How is it that I’ve grown cold, distracted by my own wants, my own needs? Falling apart are things around me, all I can do is sit and watch it unfold. I’m tired, it feels like I have no more fight left within me. Time after time, wasting my breath trying to make things clear; what I feel, what I need… only to fade away, getting me nowhere. I’ve cried, deep down that’s all I want to do, but nothing comes out. Numb, I feel numb. Paralyzed by hurt, by the pain, by the disappointment. I’ve rebuilt the wall, the one I fought so hard to tear down.
How did I get here? How did I get so far off track that I didn’t notice?
I’ve just stopped caring…
Written by : Stephanie Ann Pequeno