“When change is involved, often times I feel the need to run and hide. A part of me tries to hold on to what I have known, simply rejecting what is unknown to me. Why is it that I become intimidated by the things unknown, when I know for a fact that it is bringing something new, something good? Faith. I say I have it, but when it is needed to embrace change, I push it to the side. Over and over again I have known change to be good to me, not to harm me. It brought me hope. What I have held on to for so long has already ran it’s course. There is a new season upon me, a new time to begin. Afraid I cannot be. I am not alone.” -…Heart Of Grace
There is a new season in my life. One that I know I should be embracing, for I have waited years for a time as this. A time where I must step out of my comfort zone. A time where my life is no longer my own, but a vessel.
Ever feel like you were meant to do something more than what you’re seeing or doing at this very moment? I feel that everyday. I become frustrated because I don’t know where to begin. All I can do is wait for God to lead, to guide while I do my part and prepare.
But what does that look like? I speak to the Father, I study, I write. For it may not seem like enough in my own eyes, but in His it does. I have been planning something, something that has been on my heart for a couple years now. Though I am excited, there’s also a part of me that is scared. From only a dream, it is now becoming reality. I have waited years for this moment, for the moment God would tell me; “You’re ready.” Over and over again I have heard, “It is time.”
I have lifted my hands and said, “Here I am.” All I have ever wanted was to share my story. To share what I have been through and how God helped me through.
Sometimes it still feels like a dream. There’s been moments where I feel as though I am looking around, but through a different set of eyes, like it’s not me. That’s when I become overwhelmed, but I shouldn’t be. For I am not alone.
“What God has called us to do, he will equip us and see it through. He is not a God who shares His heart’s desires with us and leaves us with no instructions. All we must be is, patient.”-Stephanie Ann
There are still so many other things I desire to do. Again, I at times become frustrated because I feel stuck. I want to create things, but don’t know what. I want to write, but I am not sure about what. I overwhelm myself with other things, keeping me distracted from what I am actually supposed to be doing…
“The moment you begin to feel stuck, frustrated or overwhelmed, it’s a sign that you’re doing everything on your own and it’s not the right time, or what you’re meant to be doing. For I have learned; what is of God will fall into place, with little or no work from you.”-Stephanie
A lot has happened since my post: Changes I have grown, spiritually and emotionally. I have began to see myself as one who can help and lead, rather than one who needs help. (I will always need help, but I have walked into this state of new maturity.) I am learning to stand on my own two feet, rather than constantly leaning on someone else.
What has been difficult for me is the fact that certain people I was once close to are being removed from the path that God is leading me on. The more I try to stay where I want to be, the more things go wrong and I start feeling that tug on my heart.
“Where God is leading you, sometimes certain people cannot follow. Along the way, new people will be placed, to help you, to guide you. Do not try to hold on to what God is trying to remove. For it will always lead something better.”-Stephanie Ann
My calling is my own. Therefore, I must do what needs to be done. I cannot depend on someone else, nor can I wait for things to just, “happen.” There comes a time when God says, “I have done my part, now it’s time for you to do yours.”
“No one else can do what only you have been called to do…”-Stephanie Ann
The time is, now. The person is, you. Get up, leave your fears behind. Embrace the changes that are coming your way. Look ahead to things anew, letting go of the old. For what is meant to be yours is yours. Nothing or no one can take that away. Walk in love. Walk in truth. Keep your heart humble and you will see greater things. -…Heart Of Grace